Monday, June 7, 2010 ' 7:48 PM Y
i can't deny that i don't miss those times ♥
Got a surprised msged from Fen last week! Seriously, that small lil msg really makes my day so damn colourful. Damn stress recently, be it work, family or even sisters. Hah, many mst be wondering what kind of stress Im having with my sisters~ Shall slowly disclose it in my post today.
I've been debating with myself whether to blog abt this matter or not. Since this is my blog, & I shouldnt hide anything here, cux this is my territory. I think there shouldnt be any problem with my post today.
Dear sis,
I dun knw if you feel e same thing as I do, but if you ever realize, we're drifting further away frm each other. We were once e closest! & you even assured me before (few years back) that i'll still be ur best n closest no matter what. Even we arent meeting up as often as before.
Im starting to have this feeling, im losing you. Sooner or later~ Like totally. In others' eyes, we might still be e same as before, but my heart no longer feel e same. The feeling is nvr e same as before anymre. We were once a grp, or rather, still a grp of 3. Even till now~ But now, im mre close with e other 1 den you~
You once told me, we shared no secrets. You'll always be there for me & support me no matter what. Me & "her" both rank e same in ur heart. But ever since "some" things happened. Frm my point of view, u're not with me anymre. I dun knw how many tymes u've helped me to explain things to e others like, "Jess is always like tt, you shld knw her character well~" or even "Jess dun mean it tt way~ I apologize on her behalf!" Seriously, I dunno if u've ever said this before to any1 or not. Cux you nvr told me abt things like this before.
I no longer think & feel im ur no.1~ I dun need to be ur no.1, but all I want is e feeling n chemistry we used to hav. A frequency whr no1 could understand.
We used to meet up with each other for shopping or lunch/dinner often. You used to msg me silly & stupid stuffs to disturb me. But now, e only tyme i'll received ur msg is either when WE sisters are meeting up or you when need my help/assistance.
I knw im getting closer n closer with e another sister. But tt doesnt mean u're being forgotten. When i've gd stuffs, u're still e 1st who come into my mind to share things with. When I saw something u might like, i'll take n pay for e item without any hesitation. But all these doesnt matters anymre. Cux im slowly learning how to isolate myself with others.
*END of my own THOUGHTS post* (Kindly read & ignore e above post, as this post is only for me, myself & I)
Dear Fen,
Jst read ur blog. Dun cry anymre. Sayang~ Sorry, im having my peak period now. Cant meet you as often. But you can always call me to talk to me whenever you want. Jst like before. Guai~ Love Love!!
& also I wanna scold you liao. You msg me say u wanna meet me go out on sat. End up! You nvr msg me!!! Roar! >.< LOLS~ Jst kidding. I knw u're busy with ur wedding stuffs. Im jst a call away. Jst let me knw if you need my help!
Shall continue my post other days bah! When I hav e mood to do so~
