Tuesday, June 22, 2010 ' 1:49 AM Y
i can't deny that i don't miss those times ♥
A feeling that cant be explained.
I've read tt email early in e morning. Tears jst roll down my cheeks unknowingly. An unexplanable heartache was all I can feel. I din reply to tt email, becux im speechless. Both of us arent feeling good today. Your facial expression shows it all. Im sorry.
We met up today, with e others. E atmosphere was kinda weird for me. & I couldnt make myself feel comfortable there. Words are nvr Expensive. I always believe in this. Its not ur fault, neither its mine fault. Jst that, when things happened, diff people hav diff point of view & stand.
Its unfair for me to judge, its unfair for u to be sandwich in between. I choose to keep quiet, in order not to add on burden to u. I've tons of things to blog about this. But I find it meaningless.
I wanted to tell u how I feel, but all I saw, was ur backview. & so, I turned n walk away.
Can you imagine, I was looking at ur phone number e whole night. Without any courage to phone/text u. Becux you dun deserve all these shyts of mine. You're innocent from e very beginning. So I've decided, to keep u in e dark. To lock my feelings in my heart.
I'll reply to that email, once im able to communicate with e world agn. I've been isolating myself with e world for so long. I need some tyme. To learn e basic agn. Its easy to lock e heart, its hard to find e key to unlock it. I hope u understand.
Once again, im SORRY ! ! !
