' 7:12 PM Y
i can't deny that i don't miss those times ♥
Sigh~ Tml will be AhGong's 80th Birthday. Yet almost every1 are moving out tonight. I seriously dunno what to do & what to say.
AhGong wanted all his grandchildren to stay with him. But his attitude n temper are chasing them off. Or maybe its my fault? Becux I blog those things out here & they happen to read it? I dunno. Jst feeling some sort of guilty. If im part & partial of it. Dun think they will turn up for tml celebration. Esp Zen.
AhGong's health been getting from bad to worst. Yet he still wanna chase all of them out. Is it becux when those elder gets older, they behave in a very childish way and also say things without thinking? 说也不是，骂也不是！What he wants? Sigh!!!
Stress, Edward work so hard to make sure every1 of us are by his side. Staying under e same roof with him. But I seriously dun understand why mst he behave in that way & say those crude words to them. Sigh~
Now Mom is also very angry with AhGong & also wanna move out. Sigh~
Roy bro is also in deep trouble now. Sigh~ Everything is happening at e same time.
** If e reasons of them leaving this place is becux of what I complaint in e previous post, den I rather all come back & I shall move out alone. At least e majority are still with him.
Or maybe, by not getting affected by all this things anymre, e ONLY way is to keep a distance away from them. From all my loves1, my cousins n many many mre. Its ve3ry easy to keep a distance away from them. Jst shut up, jst leave this place, jst skip all gatherings e family is having. By behaving e way I used to behave e previous time when I was having problems with my relatives. Maybe tt will helps. By seeing all your loves1 quarreling and leaving this huse. Why not, let them suffer this kind of feelings instead of me suffering?
From now onwards, I shall jst keep quiet & make no comments to everything. Not gonna help out or kaypo abt anything anymore.
I SHALL JST LIVE IN MY OWN WORLD FROM NOW ON!!!
gdBYe family, gdBYe reality world~
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 ' 7:15 PM Y
i can't deny that i don't miss those times ♥
Alright, I know my blog went dead for e past 2 months.. I was having a hard time debating with myself, whether to blog here or my 秘密基地! Tons of things happened these 2months. That includes me being back to Single. If course.. Lol!!
Currently I'm having my accounting lesson now, yet am not paying any attention at all.. I'm now busy planning for my Taiwan trip. Still not sure if I'm going there for how long. Sigh!
I no longer care who's gonna read this anymore. Cux I jst couldn't tolerate all e nonsense any longer. I've been staying with inconsiderate ppl for e past few months. & recently, their actions n behaviour are way too much.
Situation:
All of them are NOT working at all. Their only entertainment is only Dota dota & dota!!! Most of my frends should know all my cousins, my mom n I share e same room. Due to limited rooms at ahgong huse! Forget all abt e freedom n Privacy a girl should have! >.< Those bunch of inconsiderate ppls are playing Dota every night without fail. If not, they will watch their anime. I'm consider a non light sleeper. Imagine i have to wake up evy night to ask them lower down e volume. They talk as if there isn't any1 in e room sleeping. E "lights" from e desktop screenR is really killing me. N they will play their games till like 4-5am? Which left me only less den 2 hours of GOOD REST! This week? Things got worst! They slept at ard 6-7am. Meaning, I can't even have a gd rest! At e end of e day, i've to drag myself to work n look like a zoombie everyday.
Can't they jst understand? I need to work! I'm not like any of them. Stay at home shake leg, money will drop from e sky. U might say, my mom will support me if I
really dun work. But please, my mom is paying Almost everythings in tt house. My
mom is already in debts. N now, e expenses every month is increasing. She's paying much more now compared when we are staying at 296. Can dome1 spare a thought for my family? ESP my mom! She's not oblige to feed u guys for free!
1 jst refused to find a decent job. Not even a part time! 2, keep giving e excuse that his brother is arranging job for him. Oh please, use ur fucking brain to think. If
ur bro still can't manage to get u to work for him due to whateva reasons. Can't u jst go fond some job? Or even go 7-11 to work part time? I seriously dun understand why do u ppl likes to gamble so much where u dun even have a single cents in ur pocket. Are u ppl that naive to think tt u sure win? At e end of e day, when u lost, who's gonna pay for u? Please use ur pea brain to think. Or even, even I won money when playing mj with them, at e end, I won't even get a single
cents. & shen I lose, I've got to pay them CASH! Hey, I work n earn those money for my own usage. I'm not ur ATM. So undo u guys think I like to play mj with them? What's e difference of lose n win?
Maybe 1 of them will say, I used up all his ATM money (~$600). But tt's when mommy really in short of cash n ask me to take tt money to pay for my school fees. Yes, I admit, I din return a single cents back to e account. Cux I believe tt my mom gave already paid him back in another way by giving him money wheneva he's broke! It's already exceed e amt I Pay for my school fees. Though my mom din say anything, but I know she's in stress. Becux of all her debts. ESP she's paying almost every bills for ahgong by herself! Including hp bill, or 4D money.
I might sound very gek gao. But they are really not sparing a thought for us. N please be fair to me. Or rather us! Me n Zen rather go to friends place or go out den staying at home. But for him, it's other reason. Totally differnt from mine. I'm not gonna say his things here. Cux it's a secret among us. I can only tell him my problems. N he will also tell me his.
To be continue.. ...
Ps: this is how I feel n what I think. No hard feelings. I jst wanna rant here.
