1st of all, thank you guys for all e wonderful surprises, presents & bday wishes. Though no matter how many times I told you guys i wan no celebration this year & keep telling my girls no hanky panky surprises frm you ppl. End up, you girls still gave me a wonderful night~ Really appreciate it alot. Thanks Fen for planning e surprises for me. Not forgetting e Mickey & my all time fav, ROYCE CHOCOLATE. (im sure im gonna go eat e chocolate to cheer myself up tonight.) Thanks Baobei for coming all e way dwn aft work. You mst be dead tired! & e Mickey!!! ^^v Thanks honey for coming & e perfume. Gd luck for your exams ltr on~ Thanks Min`er for e perfume & msg-ed with me e whole monday morning to cheer me up. Thanks girls for always be there for me whenever I needed you girls e most.

Sometimes, I would curse & swear to e god why mst he "torture" me in some sort of ways. Why should I go thru things whereby others will not go thru? Why is he taking lives away frm my love ones. Esp those who care & love me e most. Now, I thank god tt he gave me you ppl. Be it family or friends. Im so so fortunate to have you ppl in my life. I dun think I should be complaining hw bad my life has been. LOL~ Day by day, I understand tt all humans will leave e world some day. Its jst e matter of time & hw it happens. I used to believe tt when you gain something, you'll lost something in return eventually. Tt's how e world balance. But now, im gonna prove you wrong! I once did this~ I choose to gave up my friends when it comes to love. Cux of e stupid logic. Now, I have my friends back & im "happily" enjoying my 1-sided love for some *winkwinks* LOL~ I din lost anything at all. Im happy n contented with what im having now~ E gain/lost logic always happens in life, but tt doesnt means it happens all e time!

Anw, im blogging in e backward/rewind way. LOL~

26th Oct `09

Took half day leave, wanted to go shopping alone. But too bad. No money to shop. So gave up e idea & went home. Slept for e whole day~ woke up ard 7pm plus? Watch tv & play bejewel. Was waiting for them to buy food back for me. But none of them did so~ ROAR!! All bo xim. Opps~ LOL! Wanted to call saosao to dabao back for me, cux she went out to have dinner with gwen & "gangs". LOL~ But too late, she came back home mins ltr aft i finish showering. So hungry. Gwen came over as Jasper went chalet. Girls, always not interested in those guys topic esp when guys "gossip" among themselves. & guys always neglect their gf when they are too engrossed in their gossiping convo. ROAR~ *Attention to ALL GUYs, pls go do some self reflection* LOL~ Shenna jio-ed for MJ~ Lalalalas~ Play with Sheena, Gwen & AhFat(Jon). Whahahhahas~ Fen called ard 11.57pm. Said wanna be e 1st to wish me happy bday on my actual day. So we chatted on phone for awhile. & when im paying full attention to my mj game, suddenly she shouted, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JESS". I was like huh? Oh, my bday liao huh. Oh thank you~ She seems so excited & high abt my bday. I dunno why~ LOL! Min was e 1st to msg me Happy bday. Hehehhes, followed by baobei, who gave me e most bday wishes! LOL~ Suddenly some1 frm behind started singing Happy bday to u~ When I look back, I was like wtf? Eh, not funny loh!! Surprises frm my family~ Hehehehhes! So xingfu right? Hahhhahas. (its my 2nd bday surprises alr) Can you imagine your whole family singing bday song for you? & i mean ALL! LOL~ Thank you so much for e surprises~ I made a wish tt night~ & it really comes true! I wish tt ahgong could discharge frm hospital asap & get well soon. Aft I made e wish, and when I was abt to cut e cake, Melvin stopped me frm doing so. He says tt I can only cut e cake 1/2. Cannot cut "all", arbo my wish will not come true. Den I oh~ Cut it e way he wan it to be. LOL. True enough, Ahgong got discharge e next day. Hehehehhes~ Zen & Jon forced me to do tt stupid stunt. & I got my nose n face with all creams. Nabus~ we started playing cream war! LOL. & I cried for 3secs~ Hahahhahas!! Aft eating e bday cake, we continued with our MJ session. Hahahhas. I won S$5!!! Wakakkakakas~ E only winner~ LOL!

Edward din manage to make it for my surprise bday celebration. Cux he was busy with his work stuffs. You cant probably to ask him come home celebrate bday with me when his boss is still in workshop working right? LOL!! He sent me a sms before Gwen came over. & tt msg made me cry. >.< Its only a simple msg, yet I felt e love I thought I once lost it. When my ahma was gone, when dad left & when 3shu papa died~ Tt simple lil msg made me feel so warm tt I knw I still have this Big Brother by my side no matter what happen. Cry baby right? Hahhhas~

Aft replying e msg, I went over to kor's room. 1st thing Gwen saw me, she asked, eh, u jst finish bathing or jst finish crying? I was like.. ... Huh? Oh, bathing! LOL~

Thanks saosao & Gwen for rushing all e way dwn to Compass pt to buy me tt small lil bday cake. Hahahhash~

Thanks Korkor & saosao for e bag~ I love it so much!!!! Wahahhahhas~

25th Oct `09

Woke up ard 10plus am? Went over to Bedok interchange wet market for bfast. But my fav Kuay Chap "nvr open". WTF? Rest on Sunday? KNS~ Change-d venue to Sempang Bedok for Yong TauFoo. Yummy Yummy. Simply jst love e ladies finger there. Woowhoo~ After our brunch, we dabao food for ahgong, so went hospital to look for him. Aft tt, all went home~ Hehehehhes! Its time for me to slp agn~ As I only slept for less den 4hours tt night. >.< Gonna be panda soon~ Edward woke me up ask me get prepare n go out for dinner. We went Geylang Lor27A for You Tian Da Wang. We ordered Mee sua, Rou yuan, Carrot cake & xiaolongbao.& of course, Soya bean milk~ Seriously, only e carrot cake & meesua are edible, pls do not try e rest. You'll sure regret for life~ If you have ever tried e rou yuan frm tw. Then, you better dun even take a look at it. E taste jst simply sux. Not nice~ But still, I finished up e whole rou yuan. Cux its Pork! LOL~ E xiaolongbao taste even worst. Dry dry hard hard de. Machiam stone like tt. Roar! Korkor wanted to eat something else, so we headed over to~ Dunno whr. I only knw we ate Pig's organ soup! My FAV agn~ Yummy Yummy~ Hehehehehs! After dinner, its time for shopping. Went Mustafa to shop shop awhile. Saw my Puma & Adidas watch. But too bad, all guys design. My hand too small liao~ All those nice watches are too big for me to wear. Nabus~ Before gg home, went nearby to buy ka tou jian for mummy~ One of my Fav agn! OMFG~ its damn nice lah~

24th Oct `09

Steven Junior msg-ed me. Ask whether wanna join him for movie den go club. Couldn't make it for dinner as at hospital visiting ahgong & still gonna shop ard for black pants with Shenna for korkor. Went home to get ourselves prepared. Sheena got to attend Edmund's wedding dinner. As I got to rush to Bugis for dinner with SJR n gangs. Initially, we're suppose to give Lydia a belated surprise bday party. End up.. ROAR!!!! Jierong came with a bday cake. & I was kindda ½ shock to e tt cake. I only expect some surprises frm Junior's n gangs. But din knw tt Jierong was involve. Louis was there too. He claims tt he jst happens to pop by. Cux all his frenx are at Rebel. Well, I was really shock when I saw him there. But den, who cares~ Cyrus msg-ed me & said he'll try to come dwn. As he still needs to study for his exams. Was thinking he wont be coming cux we change-d venue to Ratchada 1-2hours ltr. & he seriously needs to study for his exams. Hey, dun fail ur exams hor. I dun wanna be responsible for it. LOL~ JK!!! Before we left Lunar, we had e cake cutting ceremony. LOL~ After tt, we went to Ratchada~ Another surprise tt night was, I saw Cyrus there! @ Ratchada. LOL~ Jierong n Louis went outside to bring him in. He din say he's coming. So, I shall treat him as another surprise. Steven Junior went off early tt night. & we went for supper at Boon Tong Kee. >.< Jierong insisted of eating supper, so did Cyrus. Who keep asking me whr's his slice of bday cake. Told him he was late, n din inform me tt he's coming. So din dabao for him before we left Lunar. LOL~ Den he says, no bday cake har.. Nvm~ Eat supper with us loh! Jierong was like. Ya loh yah loh~ Sigh! Got to guai guai follow them go eat supper. BUT!!! I only drink a can of Green tea in e end. Hahahs! Really no appetite to eat. So I seated there to watch Shuyi, Jierong, Louis & Cyrus enjoying their supper. LOL! Felt very uneasy, esp when some1 said something like, aiyah, its fated lah! Regarding some certain things. But soon aft, im okay~ Cyrus sent both me & Shuyi home. Thks a lot. & really really, thank you guys for coming all e way dwn jst to surprise me n cheer me up. Was really touched when Jierong went to so many places to find bday cake for me. & when Cyrus throw his exam materials aside & come all e way dwn to celebrate my bday with me. Though we only knw each other not long. Or rather knw each other for 2 wks, & we only chatted with each other for only A NIGHT! LOL~ Thks Shuyi for planning everything for me. Thks Louis for e bday cake too. & Jierong, really really thank you for everything. To msg silver, though she cant make it. To msg Cyrus, n tt yummy bday cake! XieXie~ All e best this sat yea~ Will try my best to go dwn to support you!

***

Shouldnt have expected anything frm you. Cause in e end, e mre i expect, e mre disappointed I'll be. Anw, im used to this feelings. So yah, its jst another day of life.

To be continue.. ...

你怎么了说?

看到更新了，你怎么了说?

但我似乎在期待些什么~

你是让我不想过生日的理由~1年前的今天，我们大吵了一架，感情也开始变化~

“祝我生日快乐”

我不开心！我不想过生日~ 谁能来逗我开心？
我的生日，会收到你的简讯吗？
Not referring to Mr J >.<

Who can cheer me up?

Will You?

23 October 2009

Happy Birthday to MeiLing~

Edward sent me n Mummy to Plaza Singapura this morning as she needs to attend a seminar nearby. And drop me off @ Bugis mrt. Reach-ed office, realized I forget to post my blogpost ytd night. Shyts! Anw, Edward prepared sandwiches for me ytd night for me to bring over to office to had my bfast! & Jon, sweet enough to buy me my fav bar chor mee frm Bedok 58 market as bfast too. But so sorry I din eat it as im rushing for work and Edward already prepare bfast for me. =)

Tt sandwich made me feel so god damn holy full lah! But its yummy~ Soft grain meal bread + ham + vege + cheese! Woots!!! Going to Ootoya for dinner ltr, xiaoyenleng's treat. As my bday treat? No idea.

Oh yah, feeling abit pek chek + malu now! My company's DnD is coming soon. Themes = ShangHaiTan! Nb, I dunno hw e fk e “director & script writer” plans it. There's WONDER GIRLS inside this performance. Worst, im being sabo as 1 of e wg! KNN!!! This year DnD performance, our department sure lose. LOL! Damn shag leh! Imagine im e support team members, helping them to find all sorts of music they wan. & im e only person finding for it. =.= Still ask me be wg. Feel like killing all of them here. Told them I do not have time for e rehearsal as im on leave on mon & tue. & e DnD performance will be on e coming sat aft my bday? If I din rmb wrongly. WTF?

Went jogging last night. Damn tired. Dunno wat happen to me. Jog/run for e 1st 3 rds alr feeling damn breathless and weak. Targeted to run 9 rds ytd night. But couldn't make it. So I only run/jog for 7 rds. And walk 3 rds. Damn tired. Went to rest awhile & accompanied Edward go 7-11 buy bread. When im back home, Jon was showing me tt evil smile as if he did something cruel to my lover (baobao). Confronted him, he said he break my bejewel record by 5K. Total score 149, 150 Damn dulan! Jitao go chiong my bejewel. Buay gek yan let him win me. While playing he keep kpkb, say aiyah.. .. slowly break my record hor~ CB!!! Dulan, used baobei's name. Ask him challenge baobei's score. Around 433,000K! Nabus~ But soon after tt, in less den 30mins? I broke his record liao~ Hehehehs! Den happily went to bed. Mai siao siao~ I may be nt be as pro as baobei, but im not as noob as u think! _|_ LOL

Stupid fen, when are u gg to meet me & sayang me? You this sex slave took annual leave for how many fking days alr??? Still buay ji tong come sayang me huh! LOL!!!

22 October 2009

Exercise, exercise & exercise~ This is what im doing for e past few days. Sooner or ltr, I think im gonna be a zoombie soon. LOL! Everyday after work, 1st thing to do is to chiong home. Reached home, change-d into short and tshirt, den sleep! Or maybe facebook for not mre den 30mins, have my "dinner" and den off to bed. I seriouly need mre time to sleep. But, very difficult! >.< Every night while waiting for Edward to reach home, I'll try to get some sleep for like 2-3hours? When Edward is back, den got to get myself prepared to go for e run/exercise. After e exercise, reach home, cfm got to bathe. & tt's e best part. Cux no matter how tired I am, once shower, I'll be so awake tt I cant sleep anymre. Got to wait till ard 3am? Den im able to sleep. Pathetic hor? Bo bian, who ask me wan jian fei & healthy lifestyle. I wan look pretty pretty. I dun wanna spend my money on those slimming programme. Nabus~

Ah gong was hospitalize this morning. Still not sure abt what happen. But e doc says shouldnt be any problem. But jst in case, is better for him to be warded and go for check ups. I only knw tt ahgong was not feeling well yesterday night. After he came back frm airport. But he's not having fever. Only say tt he's feeling breathless. But refused to see doc. This morning, before I went to work, realize tt he din went market. Still not feeling well. Went over his room to check on him. He says he's feeling better but still abit breathless. And ask me go work and remind me not to be late for work.

Edward sent me to Enous mrt station to take train. Bought bread for mummy for bfast. While I continue to drink my Apple juice every morning. & whenever im feeling hungry, i'll go grab some biscuits to eat. Work half way, phone rings. Pick up e call and heard this familiar voice. Its tt irritating insurance agent agn. _|_ So I kept quiet till he kup my phone. Dun wanna let tt irritating idiot spoil my day, so went to switch my phone to silent mode. Edward called ard 11am? Miss-ed call. Called him back & I was told ahgong hospitalize. Shocked! My mind went blank for tt particular moment. Den Edward told me tt ahgong is fine. Jst need to be warded for some further check ups. Phew~ Please help me to pray hard tt he will get well soon.

Was damn angry yesterday night tt i nearly dun wanna talk to him. I went over to his room to check on him, and asked him is he feeling any better? His reply to me was, still not feeling gd. Aiyah, nvm lah. Ahgong also going off soon de lah. No need bring me go see doc. Ahgong old already, wan go find ahma they all liao. KNN. Hear liao jiu damn HOT! This morning he told me e same thing agn, keep repeating ask me dun be late for work. Ask did I went to work for e past few days when he's not at home. I mst be a gd girl. Blah Blah Blah. NB!! Buay tahan him, smack him on his backside! Den he look at me, eyes wide open. I said : Dont talk these kind of nonsense to me. Den he gave me a smile, and chase me go work agn.

Today whole morning was damn busy at work. Im feeling so shag. Lunch time went for my nap. But still, not enough sleep for me. Next monday on half day (PM) leave. I swear im gonna sleep e whole day. I need lots n lots of rest. Feeling quite irritated this morning too. Cux mre den 3 ppl keep asking me how am I going to celebrate my bday. Told them not celebrating, will be sleeping at "home" (dun try to be funny, i wont be at home. Will go uncle huse to stay) and yet no1 believes. Nah! ~.~

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Meiting~ Stay pretty always! =) & also, Happy Birthday to WeeHan's twins (Boy & Girl) 1 years old le!! Woowhoo~

Was damn dulan jst now! Simply becux my Keyaki treat was being cancelled. Nabus~ Due to Keyaki restuarant now under renovation. So cant eat. Fk!!! You knw how much I wanted to eat Keyaki? Once in a year leh! But.. ... I swear im gg back there to eat next month when they re-open. F5! I dun care~ Min'er, so sorry got to postpone e lunch le. No Keyaki this saturday, meaning im free on sat! Woowhoo~ Another day for me to rest at home. Sleep like a PIG!!! oiinkoiink~

Xiaoyenleng jst called me to say dinner on friday. Japanese restuarant! Ootoya Asia Pacific. Our client's restuarant. Xiaoyenleng is their Auditor & I am e one who file their XBRL accts with ACRA systems. >.< But, this jap restuarant only serve bento sets. Meaning, ALL RICE!!! =.= Should I go or should i not? If I go, all my efforts will gone to waste. Been cutting dwn on rice recently. Cux not in e mood to eat rice. To think of everyday reach home, e maid would prepare e same old fking dishes for u.. WITHOUT FAIL!!! Steam fish, fried eggs & vege with prawns. This is wat you eat everyday. _|_ & its god damn fking.. NOT NICE! Sometimes I rather dine out even if im so broke tt I dun have much money to spend. >.<

Today went lunch with Baobei & fen @ Orchard Central @ Gelare. Saw baobei's colleagues there too. =) Had my Chef salad while baobei & fen had their Carbonara. Fen requested for mre garlic n chilli. Went back our seats after ordering e food. I din knw tt Gelare dun serve ice water~ =.= Talk cork while waiting for our food. Tt waiter serve my salad n baobei's "normal" carbonara & we started eating our food without waiting for fen's food to arrive. Cux we thought her food will be served soon. Who knws.. .. LOL! Waited for her food for mre den 10mins, another waitress came n told her they dun have chilli! LOL~ End up, some1 got to swallow dwn e without chilli n extra carbonara. LOL!!

After lunch, fen follow me back to my office as she dun have anything to do. But cant go home. Cux she got to work ard 4pm @ plaza Sin. After fen left, suddenly i felt so tired tt i actually nearly fall asleep during work! NB!!! E worst is, I din even realize tt my director was sitting beside me when i nearly fall asleep. WTF!!! Gonna die sooner or later. Sigh! F4

Got to go for my Night exercise agn tonight. & I miss my Gelare's waffle!!! I wanna eat!!! But we girls are too full jst now to even order a waffle to share! Haix.. Baobei, next Tue? Gelare's waffle? LOL~ OoPps!! NoNonono.. Next Tuesday is limbus de bday. Gonna spend my day at somewhr quiet to shake leg & relax. Not gonna stay at home! Hehehhes. Btw, my mom jst tell me tt if next tue im not celebrating my bday with my friends, she'll cook dinner for me. Cux she got medical appointment tt afternoon. So can go home early. WTF? my bday eat at home? But, nvm. Not planning to celebrate anw. So, dun eat = best! Told her see 1st lah. Most likely is dun wanna eat. Aiyah, dunno lah! Bday = troublesome!!! CCB!!! Whenever it comes to my bday, I'll feel so stress & fustrated! Evy year without fail~ KNN

Hmm, i actually blog alot last friday. But end up, i din post it up nor i save it in e draft. Jst simply del it away! & tt’s a fking long long post leh! >.< Here I am now blogging in e office, but cant post it up. Due to some fk-up reason. My company actually bans almost all website. Including blogger, blogspot, ebay, facebook & worst dictionary.com! Now, they un-ban all websites. Meaning, if you Google, and accidentally click on e link which will link u to any of e website above, ahahahahha~ G-G You're gonna be blacklisted by e company & even kena warning letter. They are all digging e hole waiting for u to fall into their trap. Damn CB right? If you dun wan ppl to serve those websites, kindly jst block everything. Stop doing so childish stuffs! Btw, I dun even knw why they wanna block e website dictionary.com! Cux my colleagues have been complaining to me abt this. =.=

Feeling damn tired these 2 days! Been joining Edward for his Night exercise since saturday night. Damn shag! Whole body aching now. Too long nvr exercise liao. He gave me an option. If you dun wanna run, you can always ride e bicycle. Good right? But too bad, limbus dun knw how to ride a bycicle! Nb!!! Okay lah, i knw how to ride, but i can only ride on straight roads. & I mean Roads! not those small squeezy bycicle track. Nononono.. ... I cant balance well. Sigh! So I got to run. If you ever knw me well. Im those kind who hates to run!!! Mrs Sheena Xu mst be laughing non stop now!!! ROAR!!! F5

Happy Birthday, Joan Tan Xiu Xiu~!~!~ (in advance) Hehehehehs~
Yesterday went Baobei huse for steamboat. An advance birthday celebration for her. God damn holy shyt! Tt stupid Wilson, dun even knw how to tell lies/keep secret! LOL~ Anw, I enjoyed myself alot ytd night. Having great times with my bytches~ I need mre of these gathering. But, please ppl! Stop forcing me to eat. Hhahahas. Gonna meet Boabei for lunch tml afternoon during our lunch hour. Fen will be joining us too. Yet to decide what to eat. But Im craving for Gelare's salad/waffle! Opps~ Waffle is fattening! Hmm, mst change venue! Baobei & Fen, please think of some other places to eat >.<

Shall continue to blog ltr, need to work liao. Sigh, its only 10am now! Work is so torturing to me now~

Im back here to continue my post. Woowhoo~ Boss approved my leave on 26th Oct (PM) & 27 Oct!!! Finally can have a gd gd rest. =D While working, was listening songs using my w980. There’s this song I find e lyrics super meaningful! & im having this feeling, if Wilson were to read e lyrics. For sure he’ll say nice1. LOL! Hahhhahas~

Now that it’s all said and done,
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

***Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

***

‘Cause I got over you.
I got over you.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.

~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~

Woah, damn shag! Slept at ard 5am last night & woke up at 7.30am! Nubus! Hmm, feeling so excited now. Cux Saturday is coming~ Keyaki! Hehehehhes~ Anw, im not gonna organize anymre surprises. Damn tiring! LOL. & due to some nbcb fk-up reason. Some may knw why. My birthday is drawing damn near. & im not even excited. =.= Dun even plan to celebrate with my family members too. >.< Mummy said this year very xiong for her & Roy. So both of them got to celebrate bday. Meaning, this year not xiong for me. So I dun need to celebrate. LOL!!! I jst need a gd rest! A shopping spree for myself. But! Fat hope. Cux im only getting my pay on e 28th of every mth. & my bday falls on e 27th. There goes my shopping plan. Guys, no surprise frm you ppl. Every year when I celebrate my bday, I’ll either quarrel with my bytches or boyfriend. >.< 2 years ago, I sort of quarreled with Angel. Cux she thinks tt I dun really appreciate e surprise she & min`er prepared for me. Which is a Ben & Jerry ice cream + brownie. Sigh, during tt time, only min`er, baobei & some of e girls there knw abt my story. & I jst recovered frm my depression. >.< Only they knw how torture it is to me to swallow dwn tt Ben & Jerry’s ice cream. But still, I manage to eat ¼ of e ice cream + brownie. I really appreciate it a lot. >.< But Angel claims tt I dun look surprise at all. >.< Baobei, came with Liyan super duper late! & claims tt their late arrival was meant to be a surprise for me too. But too bad, no surprises frm them. But tears! I cried badly tt night! Nabus~ LOL!!! & all of my friends claims tt ima bad girl. For not accepting Albert, yet I still accept his “diamond” necklace! KNN!!!

Last year, days without my bytches. So I happily thought tt history wont happened agn. Who knws, I quarreled with my boyfriend! Kena “fk-ed” by him on my bday. All I got frm him tt day was, scolding, scolding & scolding + attitude. Last but not least, a bday wishes frm him. F3/4 Pathetic huh?

Now you knw e reasons why I refuse to celebrate my bday this year? When all e bytches are back tgt, & my relationship status now is still so-called “attached.” Cux none of us said e word brk up. You ppl mst be thinking there’s something call silence brk. But, I dun like tt. Imagine e 1 you love suddenly gone mia & u’re waiting for him/her stupidly. Suddenly when he/she is back, he/she told you tt he/she treated ur relationship as silence brk? Tt’s very bad! So, nononono~

Went to visit e doc last wed. Not very gd news. >.< E stupid doc sounds so serious tt im actually quite afraid of what he told me. Cux he looks & sounds fking serious abt it. ~.~ Doc advise me not to stress myself too much. Mst relax~

Ohh yeah~ It’s 17:30 now~ Woohoo! Can go back rest liao. Hmmm, but before tt, mst go shop present for baobei 1st. Tt stupid arcade refused to sell me tt Tiger.

Tml 吃什么好呢？Girls, we meeting 12:30pm @ somerset MRT station. Dun be late. As we still need to rush back to work! LOL~ Ppl with camera, pls bring ur camera along! Hhaahahas~

我在無名更新了！

Be Good All The Times~ TAKE CARE!!!

WTF? She's not even pretty at all!!! =.=

Dunno why i wanna blog how I feel so much after reading something else in some places~ Maybe afew of you should knw what im talking abt after finish reading my post!

Few mins ago, I read something. Every time i read, every time i exit that particular page in a sibeh DULAN mood! Why? Shall not mention here! Since this is my blog, I should ALSO dun care abt how others feel & blog it out! As if I care you're reading~ Nah~ Jesslyn, a girl who dun give a damn to ppl she is unhappy with~ Who is famous for *YOU THINK SHE CARE?* attitude~

I swear, i've given superb much tolerance to this particular person! SHALL NOT NAME HE/SHE OUT!!! Opps~ How should i blog this out in a very nice way leh? LOL!!! Some things, I'll forgive & forget. Some, I'll remember & NVR forget!

I seriously dun care how many fucking years we've known each other. Since you can say those hurtful things to me without even considering abt my feelings, & now, why should I be bothered with your feelings? You hurt me not once, not twice but TRICE!!! PCB! Totally cant tolerate who you are NOW!!! _|_ Stop saying how nbcb pro you are~ When you fucking pissed ppl off for some fucking reasons! How PRO you are to actually made me SWEAR that I'll nvr entertain you with that cb game anymre! Thumbs up for you! Or rather, you wan limbus to salute you?

Im not a cb who looks dwn on my friend. But at e rate you are behaving now. Please, go temple pray mre often to obtain that fucking *god-knws-drop-from-whr* luck to bo bi you in whatever shyts you are doing now or rather in e future. By making yourself mre & mre PRO each day, you also better make sure your fucking salary in e future also as PRO as your skills now loh~ It makes me wonder, how are you gonna survive in e future?

While typing this post, I keep asking myself this question, should I STOP edit this post? I keep type & del my words!! CCB! Not becux I knw you for fucking so many years, you think I will blog until so kang kor? KNN! Dun wan blog anymre, e mre I blog, e mre DULAN I am!!!

Before I start my post, let me warn you 1st! This gonna be a damn fking long post!!!

Suddenly, im having the urge to blog this morning in e office. Okay, early in the morning, reach-ed office, switch on my desktop. 1st thing = check gmail! LOL!! As i sent my client some email via gmail~ So got to check if she replied my email. To my surprise, e 1st thing i saw in my gmail was email notification from facebook! Had a look at e msg, saw a familiar name.. JxxxxTxx! (Joan Tan, u better dun claim that JxxxxTxx is you!!!) LOL!! Anw, the client din reply to my email.

Usually, I'll be very happy/excited whenever I saw that name appears in my gmail. Becux it means that he tag/comment me in facebook! =) Apparently, for this time round, im neither happy nor excited! Im worried, im still feeling sad! Im worried that I might be reading something similar again! Im sad becux I want no mre quarrels! But mainly becux I still felt hurt even until today.. Whatever things you said that night in msn & hp msg-es! It affects me + hurts me alot!!! Even till now, after I have cool down, I still thinks that im not at fault at all. I dun think that im thinking too much! Bits by bits, lil by lil! Im giving you up. Its Hard!!! But im learning~ You nvr knw how much tears i've shed for you for e past 2 months! You nvr knw how hurtful your words are that night! You nvr realize you always hurt me unknowingly! You'll nvr understand why am I so particular about that "few words". To you, it may be jst a few words. To me, I saw e differences between me & her!!! F3/4

No matter how much I misses you, am trying very hard not to msg you! Or even tag you in facebook! When you're online in facebook, I'll go watch Tv. I'll stay away from my laptop! & when you're not in facebook, I'll be back to play my games! Whenever I see you online in msn, I'll force myself to shut down my laptop within 30mins & off to my bed!

Im trying my best to keep a distance away from you. Becux this is what you wan! This is what you mentioned in e conversation/quarrel we had in msn that night! This is what I understand from your words! Sigh!

To Be Continue.. ...

Im back to continue my post. Anw, Im super duper lazy to upload photos here~ So if you wanna see those pics I took during Super Import Night 2009, kindly visit my facebook & check it out! LOL~ Dun tell me you dunno my facebook link! If you are able to read this blog, meaning you should knw my facebook link too! =.=

1st October '09
Happy Birthday to Gwen! Jst got to knw her not long ago~ She's my dasao friend & now, she's my friend too.. LOL! A very friendly girl! & her birthday falls on e Children's Day! Meaning, forever, Gwen will be 长不大的大孩子! LOL! Jst kidding~ May all your dreams come true! =D

Shall not blog about work! Cux whole day was damn boring + busy! After work, rush-ed home! Waited for Jon to come back from 7-11 with Ahgong. We headed dwn to SengKang to pick Fen up! On e way to SK, TPE was having serious traffic jam. WTF? TPE also will jam de meh? Called Sheena to ask if she wanna eat anything from Compass~ Cux Tampines food I eat until super sian liao! She said she & korkor wants nth from there, so we ended e conversation. Few minutes ltr, Edward called said they'll be joining us for dinner at CP. "Shop" around, had our dinner at Yoshinoya~ While waiting for our food, Me & Fen went popular to look for some puzzle games book. But couldnt find e 1 i wanted. Went 7-11 with Fen to buy ciggs! She was walking so slow that I keep KP her! Also dunno how I started e conversation of buying ciggs kena check IC! Was mocking at her on e way to 7-11. I forget what she replied me & I actually answered back, lucky im not like you! Buy ciggs still kena check IC.. Xia suay~ Already 20 years old liao still kena check! Heng im not like you! I wont get check now~ Before I could finish my last sentence, i had this feeling! I mst swallow back my last sentence~ LOL! So, i swallow back my words! And went in 7-11 to buy ciggs for Fen. _|_ That cb manager check limbus de IC!! Nabus~ So I lan lan, got to show her my IC! CB Fen was laughing all e way back to Yoshinoya!

After dinner, sent Fen back to SK home to pack her stuffs~ As we're sending her back to Wj's place~ When she's packing her stuffs, heard her conversation with her Dad. Her Dad damn cute lah! LOL~ Imagine when you're talking to your Dad & he replied you in an ACT CUTE tone! ROFL~ Nth much happen after that. Oh Ya!!! Korkor requested me & Sheena to buy him a dunno what brand de watch! Which cost around 520,000 pounds? Even its in SGD! You think e both of us can afford? LOL! My korkor is also very cute at certain times~ LOL! Opps~ >.<

30 September '09
Belated Birthday Treat for my Mummy! Edward, Sheena, Jon, Roy, Ahgong & Mummy not forgetting me too! =D 7 of us ate S$180!! Themes for e night, Seafood! My pocket burnt 1 big big HOLE!!! >.< F3/4! LOL!! Nvm, once in a year! So long as everyone enjoyed, that's e most important thing. ^^

29 September '09
Fen bought MHK for me! Hehehehees~ Thanks Sis!!! ^^ Fen slack at my place for awhile & went back Wj house! That's all I could remember~

28 September '09
Early in e morning wake up already not feeling well! Was thinking maybe should be nvr rest early/well e last night! As I slept around 4am! Dont wanna elaborate why! (Anw, a million thanks to Fen! Thanks for "running" all e way down to Mac to cheer me up! & to lend me your shoulders to cry~ LOL! But e moment i see you, I jitao cannot cry anymre! Whole night no mre tears!! LOL~)

Reached office, stone awhile! Do my work! Suddenly felt a sharp pain in e chest! Its hard to describe e pain! Feels like kena electrical shock! & soon after e sharp pain, e pain would spread to my left hand! This time round, its e veins that hurts! The pain would last around 10sec each time! & that's not e end of my torture! My left hand would feels numb & weak after that! Something like your hand was paralyze? The feeling simply jst SUX! Got to visit e doc soon if the pain still persist! >.<

Suppose to bring Mummy go Amara Hotel for International Buffet! Jio xiaoYenLeng & Ros along~ End up, that gentleman insisted of settling e bills! So had to find some other day to treat Mummy liao. F3/4 I dunno isit becux of my health or is e food there really drop standard! I nearly vomited after my lunch! When i only ate so lil things~ >.< After work, met Fen at Tmall for mooncake shopping & Fish n Co~ Was craving for that weeks ago~ Shall not mentioned Goodwood Park mooncake here anymre! DULAN~ Dunno for what fucking cb reason, spend so much money on that fucking nice mooncake yet still wanna give it to some bloody idiots who dunno how to appreciate things at all! WASTE MY EFFORT bringing e mooncake back! CCB!!!

KEYAKI~ Im coming soon~ Min-er~ Tempted huh??? LOL

*Im planning for something as my bday present from myself to me this year* LOL

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