Saturday, July 4, 2009 ' 11:30 PM Y
i can't deny that i don't miss those times ♥
been spending times with my girls.. thanks to all those who actually msg-ed me jst to make sure im Fine~ thanks to Wilson Chia, for talking cork with me.. LOL.. ~thanks to reb0rn for e bedtime story.. thanks Cerlyn Chan for e treat on friday.. hehehes.. especially all my girls.. baobei, h0neyy, laopo, xiaofen, bun n ting.. thanks alot.. love u bytches.. muacks.. really appreciate it alot..
jst came back frm ting's place.. currently blogging at nana's place.. steamboat was.. NICE~ ting, next time if we organize any gathering or steamboat session.. u shall be e cook ya? LOL..
im feeling much better these 2 days.. jst dun remind me of wat happened.. jst leave me alone.. jst dun let me see them.. i'll be perfectly fine.. =)
im sorry baobei, i knw i hurt u by doing those silly things.. i knw hw sad u are when u see those scars on my hand.. but i jst couldnt help it but to hurt myself.. i feel much better after doing all those silly things.. i knw there's always other ways to vent all e unhapiness.. but, u should knw me well enough.. when i cant take stress.. e only things i'll do is to hurt myself.. i knw by hurting myself wont solve e problems or wat.. but it do makes me feel BETTER..
bun saw e scars on my hand today.. she show no expression.. jst ask me.. why like tt? wat happen? i think she'll be damn angry with me also.. IM SORRY.. XIAOMINMEI~
now, i only fear for tml's arrival.. i've got to face ALL OF THEM again.. including ahgong.. wat if... they saw my scars.. wat if they ask me wat happen to my hand.. how am i going to explain to them? or even worst.. Edward ask me to follow him to 1 corner.. and "question" me? how am i going to answer? i jst dun wanna tell them much.. wat if i cant control my tears during tml's prayers? sigh~
can some1 jst save me? or tell me wat to do? =(
